Hair:Transforming IRL

As I started cutting my hair a few days ago, I realized that I have consistently gone to my hair to reinvent myself. Some of my drastic changes have aligned with major transformations in my life and sometimes it was just a personal transformation that was needed.

As a Leo rising and having Leo in my first house, my hair has always been a big part of who I am. Anyone who has strong Leo placements can tell you that it’s all about the hair, lol. [Aries folks can also get me too.] I have worn mine short, long, curly, straight, braided, twisted, loc’d, cornrowed, one side- shaved, whole head shaved, blond, red, purple, orange, blue, pink, green, grey. Most recently (like literally two days ago), I realized that this has been a pattern since I was in my teens. Sometimes the change was motivated by a style I’d seen. Other times, like when I was about to give birth to my first son or after my father passed, it coincided with a major transition.

My hair has always been about changing something that is in my control. While I didn’t know what life would be like as a new mom, I was certain that in order to start my first set of locs, I needed to cut away my old hair. Having that certainty about something helped me to get through a time that was strife with uncertainty. There is something to be said about being able to physically depict the shift I have just shifted through or the shift that I am preparing to shift into. I blame my Uranus in Scorpio for the shock value and sudden changes ( it appears that way to others anyways) that have been a large part of my M.O. I liken it to getting a new tattoo but way less permanent; changing my hair has been based on the belief that it grows back. Thankfully, it has been faithful and loyal in that way (for which I am grateful. I know that isn’t the case for everyone). I have also always made changes with the intention that I would love it no matter what. I’ve had to have that attitude since I have usually done these changes on my own without the assistance of a “professional”. 😂🤣 There was only one time that I had to go to someone to help me “fix” my work and he ragged on me about trying to do it myself. Sorry not sorry, lol.

So, what sparked the desire to cut this time? A major transformation. It felt like what has been described as an ego death. Which makes sense since I have been in a death/rebirth cycle for quite sometime. I’ve been channeling snake energy - the energy of transmutation - which shifts the idea of transformation just enough to allow for the integration of what was before. Even if it may be painful to accept, the goal is not to forget who I’ve been and how I got here. Everything I’ve experienced has gotten me to this point right now, so for that very reason, I wouldn’t change anything.

Being able to change up my hair has offered me freedom and flexibility in a way that life isn’t always able. It allows me to be rebellious in a way that won’t hurt anyone. I like those kinds of rebellions.

Choosing Happy